Friday, October 12, 2007;
I had enough all these and i really meant it !!
why?why do u guys wanna treat me lyk tis?juz wat had i done tt makes u guys treat me lyk tis?
went for basketball today..rained agn..so we went to the coffee shop nearly..we didnt ate anything at 1st..juz drank some drinks and we sat dwn at the nearly area..they were talking..leaving me alone listening to music which no one giv a damn..
so i went away to the other side to sit..when they had finished their drink..they juz walk away without letting me noe !! they juz walk away lyk tis !! wtf is tis ?!?! then they went to another coffee shop nearby for lunch..i juz walked away lyk tis after sitting dwn for 20 sec or so and they did not say anything..till nw none of them msged or called me to ask wat happened..
i treat them as my best frenz whom i can share anything wif..but i was wrong..they dont even giv a damn about me..they dont even care whether i am there or not !!
i had enough of tis..tis is not juz the 1st time..ytd also lyk tt..they said play basketball..but rained..so we went to someone's house as 'he' got sth to giv the girls..so i juz stayed at the staircase..then they juz went off doing the things the girls requested and juz left me alone..
wat is tis?? since u guys wanna b lyk tis..y not DONT call me out ?! dont u all noe its a waste of time juz to go there..sit there..being ignored..then nobody giv a damn bout it..plz..if u guys wan me to be there,can at least prove my existance? i'm a human..i hav feelings as u all do..but juz y do u all hav to treat me lyk tis? if tts the case might as well break our friendship up..i dont nid frenz who treat me lyk shit while i giv them the best i hav all the time..
when u guys nided help..u guys approached me..did i say "get lost" or "sry i cant help u"? everytime my ans is either "ok" or "wait while i go check for u"..then nw u all treat me lyk tis..fine..
i had enough..how i wish i was dead nw than being alive suffering all these nonsense..
she..tis another thing i'm at the utmost concerned and thinking about..since from 25/9,she hav been pushing me out..i am really really very sad..very very tired..she kip avoiding me..ignoring me..ok..i noe its my fault for hurting yur feelings once agn..i dont say a word about hw u treat me but instead i asked about hw u r all along..are u ok..is everything going smoothly for her..yet..things are still the same..are u doing this so tt to punish me and to make me feel hw it is lyk to hurt someone?if tts the case..y not u tell me juz wat u wanna do?
do u noe the more u ignore me..the more i'm starting to feel tt u're irritating and start to hate u? deep inside me i dont hate u..in fact i wanna find out hw u r recently and hw are u feeling..are u ok.. i wanna noe everything about u..yet being treated lyk tis..if u really find me irritating to u..and u nid space..TELL ME !! i'll giv u all the space and in fact i'm rdy to leave u anytime and nver to appear infront of u agn..all u nid to do is juz tell me tts wat u wan..and i'll giv it to u..
to all those ppl i talk bout above..u noe who u r..if tts wat u really wan..then fine..let it b..end of friendship and tts it..as for her..i'll still and i'm still waiting for an ans..i'm not gonna talk to her until she talks to me..dont wanna disturb her and make her feel irritated..
Time Posted
2:30 PM
